3 Week Birthday

Today is Brodie's 3 week birthday. It seems like it has flown by but it is hard to remember what life was like before Brodie.   Today has been good but a little bittersweet.  He has been more awake and aware than in the past but he also seems to be a bit more agitated.  It is hard to tell yourself that he is not in pain if he is moving around  and seems like he is gagging.  He also looks at us and that is painful because you know he just wants our help but all we can do is smile and talk to him.  They went up a little on the oscillator pressure and when we came in his numbers were a little low.  Over the weekend when a nurse would do something to him his numbers would remain where they were, now they are plummeting like they have done in the past and it takes longer for him to recover.  There is now a sign on the door that requires anyone going into his room to check with the nurse before entering.  He is not doing well with stimulation but they say that he needs to feel and hear us.  It is just so hard because we know that he is just one small issue from things turning bad quickly.  We just want him to know that we are here and that we will do anything possible to bring him home.  We are thankful for each of the first 21 days that we have been able to spend with him.  We don't know what the outcome is going to be but we do know that we will be by his side along the way.